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New Beginnings

What does “New Beginnings” means to you since it is a New Year? It is awesome to see 2018!! There are many who have not survived 2017. Let’s have a silent moment for those who didn’t make it to 2018………………………………………….

The year of 2017 was a difficult pill for me to swallow. My mother died un-expectedly at 47 years old, my significant other experienced a stroke and was in a coma for a few days, then I was laid off of my job right before Thanksgiving. I couldn’t understand why all these things were happening out of the blue. Things weren’t making any sense to me at all. Have you ever felt so many tribulations happening in your life and couldn’t understand the reason behind them? I bet you did. Well let the truth be known, these things had to take place in our life to get us out of our comfort zone, to mature us, and to become the person we need to be.

Again what does “New Beginnings” means to you? Have you gave it some thought or was you just putting it off because you take life as “it is what it is”? Trust and believe that life is what you make it. If you are bitter, then life will be bitter. If you are humble then life will be humble to you. People fail to realize that what we think about life and how we portray ourselves is what life will be for us. You really have to command yourself to think positive to attract positive energy. When you attract positive energy, your life will be positive. I hope you took some time out to think about the question, what does “New Beginnings” means to you. If you did, please feel free to share.

As for me what “New Beginnings” means to me is feeling free and liberated! I used to always concern myself with what people say and think of me. I was so insecure with myself that I would do anything to have a friendship. I learned the hard way. The meaning of “friendship” is different for many people and “real friends” are hard to come by. Too many times I have put other people’s feelings before my own. I was so ashamed of myself, because of my background growing up in foster care, having a hearing challenge and the whole nine yards. I was so broken. And because I was so broken and insecure; any intimacy relationship I was in was a disaster. I did not know what it was like to be loved and accepted other than what my biological mother had displayed to me when I was five years old. I was searching the highs and lows for that affection and yearning of my mother. It took me a long time to accept the reality that I could never go back to being five years old and receive that unconditional love I once received. I had to accept it and move on with my life. It is still a struggle to this day only because it is not coming from my mother, but I have my four beautiful children that shows me unconditional love daily.

It took for the passing of my mother to be okay with “Kamil” and to know that it is none of my business of what people say and think of me. Because by the end of the day, they do not pay my bills nor put food on my table. I was thinking like what was wrong with me to let people have that much control and power over what I do in my life. Shame on me and shame on you if you let people have that much control and power over your life! Life is too short and precious to be pleasing people who does not have your best interest at heart. If they can’t accept you for who you are, then they don’t deserve you at all. Don’t force people to be in your life that does not want to be in your life. You only hurt yourself even more deeply. Surround yourself with people who loves and accept you for you!! Life is much easier when you do! Remember tomorrow is not promise. Think about your “New Beginnings” and kick those negative habits to the curb that is holding you back!!

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2 thoughts on “New Beginnings”

  1. Thank you Mrs. Rogers. I like your meaning of New Beginnings. It is very important to have hope because it grows our faith. Show the world, by building up your faith. Bring your faith to fruition!! When you do that, you will see how God works in mysterious ways that it will blow you away. I’m so blown away by what He is doing for me!! I’m beyond happy to have faced my fears!! Its amazing!! Please feel free to follow my blog and share with others. My God bless you and favor you more than ever on your journey to success!!

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  2. First, let me say that your story is truly inspiring. May god continue to bless you throughout your journey. New beginnings live within and for me it gives me a sense of hope. Hope that I can always try again if at first I didn’t succeed.

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