Greetings My Loves,
How have each and everyone of you have been doing? How was your Thanksgiving if you celebrate it? I celebrated Thanksgiving as a way to show how grateful I am for everything that has transpired and will be transpiring in my life. However I’ve learned that for some especially Native Americans that thanksgiving is a painful remembrance of what the European people did to them. It honestly had me thinking about all these man-made holidays and the purpose of why it was created.
As the days go by, I continue to allow my mind to be exposed to the painful truth of my ancestors. I honestly don’t understand how we could just forget what they been through especially homosexuality when blacks males were raped by their masters. I wondered if black males today know that part of our history. I honestly believe if we knew our history there weren’t be any violence or hatred among our own kind. It’s unfortunately sad how with each passing day America continues to erase our history for us to not have any knowledge of it. What’s even more sad is how can America be the land of the free when it was stolen?
I was reading my Bible earlier and paused to ask God how come He is not delivering our people just like how He delivered the Israelites out of Egypt with a mighty hand. I went on to ask God what convenant does He remember for us to be delivered just like how He remembered Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. So many questions were coming left and right even though some related to my own life. I’ve been in the wilderness and I’m now in the promise land flowing with milk and honey. My wilderness was Buffalo, NY. I relocated to Pennsylvania which is the promise land for myself and my children. I have so much help here from people left and right, that’s my milk and honey. My milk and honey will multiply as I get on my feet. Since I’ve been in this promise land, I’ve been home sick sounding like the Israelites complaining how we should go back to where we came from. I realized I was so selfish and not thanking God for bringing me and my children out of the wilderness. God has answered my questions of why our people are not delivered it’s because many are not following His ways nor believing in Him.
I trusted God and I believed Him. And this is why I’m here where I am.
I realized I still wanted to hold onto my past, the wilderness by still wanting to operate my business in Buffalo, NY. I needed to let that go and operate my business in Pennsylvania. Every time I cross the state line to Pennsylvania, it’s a big sign that says “Pursue Your Happiness”, it serves as a reminder that I need to pursue my happiness no one else’s other than my children. Every day I have to speak positive to myself because in the wilderness I spoke negative to myself as a result of people speaking negatively towards me. Here I am in Pennsylvania don’t care what people say or think of me because I am my own person.
In order for me to grow, I needed to focus on me, the lessons I’ve endured, and to realize what I do have, because there are people without the basic needs.
I love all of me and I’m so proud of myself for allowing myself to accept the love that has found me which is myself!
For all you, make necessary changes in your life if you have to especially if it’s keeping you stuck in the wilderness. Do what you have to do to get to the promise land. Get right with God before it’s too late because you don’t want to die in the wilderness.
Have an expectation and believe that what you expect will come forth.
As Always I share what’s on my mind not withholding anything back.
Be safe and of good mind!